The Not So Secret Life of the Manic Depressive: Ten Years On

  • Published on Nov 8, 2017
  • This is a documentary on Bipolar Bipolar Disorder also known as Manic Depression and features Stephen Fry.. This documentary went to air on the 10th of October 2017 ABC TV.If you need to talk to someone you can call lifeline on 13 11 14 or beyond blue on 1300 22 46 36 also SANE on 1800 1872 63

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  • sarah deason
    sarah deason 16 hours ago

    Excellent informative. So happy people are learning about bi-polar .

  • Zuuzaankaaa
    Zuuzaankaaa 4 days ago

    Again: No one asks "why?", just medication...

  • Liz C
    Liz C 5 days ago

    thank you for this Stephen, and thank you to all the bipolar people who are open.

  • julian sturgeon
    julian sturgeon 9 days ago

    Side effects are not common with lithium, many people dont get any. I found the few i had when i started it went away, the dullness passes and if not a lower dose cant sort it. For me the benefit of not spending huge amounts and being more relaxed leaving the house is worth it. I though my anxiety was just that but realise now it was mania causing it.

  • Andy Allwood
    Andy Allwood 11 days ago

    I was diagnosed with biploar in 2000, I was 18 and hadn't even heard of it.
    In 2017 I was re-diagnosed with dysthymia, which is a persistent, continuous depression.
    I still get highs where I think everything will work out, but most of the time I just feel low.
    Google calls dysthymia a 'persistent mild depression' but there's nothing mild about almost continuous suicidal thoughts.

    • Andy Allwood
      Andy Allwood 9 days ago

      +Ranajay Bhaumik Yeah, maybe I should. I was diagnosed with bipolar by my doctor in 2000. I was diagnosed with dysthymia by a therapist in 2017, who said that I was probably diagnosed with bipolar in 2000 because I was still young (18) and still developing.

    • Ranajay Bhaumik
      Ranajay Bhaumik 10 days ago

      i suggest you get yourself re-diagnosed based on your continuous suicidal thoughts. perhaps the doctor overlooked it.

  • Katherine Poindexter
    Katherine Poindexter 11 days ago

    Medication is a flashlight in the darkness. it enables me to see but it is still dark outside. I rather have the flashlight then no light at all. My symptoms will never leave me, the medication helps me cope and live a basically normal life.

  • bennyFROMaustralia
    bennyFROMaustralia 15 days ago +2

    Poor Cordelia. May she find peace 💓

  • Jenn P
    Jenn P 19 days ago

    This gives you happy

  • Andrew Rogerson
    Andrew Rogerson 22 days ago +3

    "The following program contains content that may concern some viewers". If you have any heart at all I'm sure it would concern you.

  • Derek Elliott
    Derek Elliott 24 days ago +1

    It's amazing (insane? crazy? stupid? ) that in 2017 a very intelligent person like Stephen Fry ( and I'm a huge fan ) thinks you can fly from London to San Francisco and back and then Chennai and back within a week, exist on Xanax, Ambien and vodka induced "sleep" and not realize that you are putting yourself at risk of serious harm of some sort even if you are not facing mental health challenges.

  • John Ford
    John Ford 26 days ago

    Always when someone opens up about a disease online there is someone who chimes in: "Me too! It's exactly like that!". Well, here goes; I too had my boxer shorts sorted by color grading earlier this year. Thankfully, that phase has passed, but it is comforting to know I'm not alone.

  • chu cky
    chu cky 27 days ago

    My partner walked out on me and the kids a week ago. It's so hard to feel like I make someone feel miserable. How to fix?

  • Fire Horse
    Fire Horse 29 days ago

    CHILDHOOD ABUSE AND TRAUMA FROM PARENTS WITH NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER looks and feels exactly like this. I've been struggling with Bipolar 2 ever since I was a teenager (took 6 years to finish high school instead of 4) because I couldn't get out of bed for weeks at a time. Always thought I had a problem then saw the reality (4 decades later) of my parents and family and BAM! THEY ARE THE ONES WITH THE PROBLEM. NOT ME. Narcs get worse as they age. Narcissistic abuse, coupled with physical and emotional abuse, hyper-critical, judgemental and punishing parents leads to that awful inner critic voice telling you "you're worthless" all the time. Children soak up everything like a sponge. Narc parents will cause a lifetime of complex PTSD full of self-sabotaging behaviours, self-medication, poor coping mechanisms, anxiety, panic attacks and self isolation . IT ALL GETS SO MUCH BETTER WITH COGNITIVE BEHAVIOURAL THERAPY.

  • Sharon Mcdougall
    Sharon Mcdougall 29 days ago +2

    I love your singing on the train god bless you your beutifull mum's face lights up when she speaks about her brave brave boy god bless you 😊 you beutifull soul

  • Graham Grimmett
    Graham Grimmett Month ago

    oh no, run for cover...more look-at-me-narcissism mea culpa new man horsheshit from light entertainment's biggest bore since Ronnie Corbett. Fuck off already.

  • Stephanie De Jesus
    Stephanie De Jesus Month ago

    Heartbreaking to see how low that interview the with "ethics" director made him feel but I was shocked when I saw the documentary that he was able to speak to those people at all and not have adverse side affects considering his condition. Well it did affect him, I'm just so happy he failed. :'-(
    Talking out and seeking to secure and protect rights for marginalized peoples is so overly consuming, depressing stressing that a lot of leaders end up nearly suicidal. But they have to be so incredibly strong and perfect because of how they are attacked by ignorant people who want to uphold hatred and discrimination. So much pressure. 😔

  • Anjelia Rakic
    Anjelia Rakic Month ago

    I have Bipolar 2 disorder so I only have hypo manic episodes of 'high' but the depressive episodes are very hard. I got diagnosed after a suicide attempt at the age of 30. Looking back now I had bipolar ever since i can remember. Depression episodes lasted for yrs each one deeper then the one before. I don't even know If i had any periods of normal mood. There are things we can do to help our selves live a full life. Get a good psychiatrist and therapist. GBT helped me. Accept your mood disorder and that you will probably be on mads for life(i will be taking a mood stabilizer for life Lamictal, antidepressants when and if i need them). Get to know your symptoms well and what triggers them. For me it is prolonged stress and or lack of sleep. So do my best to minimize triggers. If u can't get family support find a support group. Last but not least know u are not alone and u can have a happy for filling life living with bipolar.

  • Indicteronomy
    Indicteronomy Month ago +1

    This program needs to figure out what the grammatical use of the word "bipolar" is. Because it's been used in lots of different incompatible ways. Figure it out guys. Then make your film.

  • Dovie Dossett
    Dovie Dossett Month ago +1

    Stephen Fry walked off of the stage in front of a West End theatre audience and disappeared into Eastern Europe without a word to anyone. Do you call that a "private" bipolar moment?! I've seen evidence of his bipolar disorder in his work since I've known who he was. I assumed that everyone knew that Stephen Fry was bipolar just as everyone knew he was gay. It's a big part of his brand, for goodness sake! It is no doubt the source of much of his brilliance as a performer and as a thinker. It's nothing to be ashamed of, it's certainly something to be managed.

  • Dovie Dossett
    Dovie Dossett Month ago +2

    Good God, a drunken clown could diagnose bipolar type 1 in Stephen. Why was he not diagnosed in college? His symptoms are textbook--and have been for decades. Stephen Fry is one of the most intelligent people in the English-speaking World. It amazes me that he is so appallingly unaware of the realities of his illness. He should have a close working relationship with a good psychiatrist and an exceptional counselor who specializes in entertainment industry patients with his condition. Goodness knows there's enough of them! He will be in counseling for the rest of his life, which may in fact ensure that there IS a rest of his life. Why do bipolars relapse? Because they stop taking their medicine and they stop going to counseling sessions. Of course there is no discussion of a cure--there is no cure. There's just management, and there's a lot of it required. You know this! Let's move the conversation on to more productive topics, Stephen.

  • Annemarie May
    Annemarie May Month ago

    Medication seems to help some but not all. It made it worse for me. But, I got control of it when I decided that I would take responsibility for my own sanity and not depend on others to protect it or cure me, which I new they could never do, as Bipolar is incurable, but can be managed, by various techniques. The problem is that it can take many forms and it keeps changing so that what works for one sufferer fails for another. And, even as an individual like me, who thinks they have this affliction beaten, you have to understand that as soon as something in your life or environment changes, even something as simply a change of seasons, with temperature extremes, more or less light etc, you need to take steps to ensure you are ready for it, with your various solutions to control bipolar. Or it will start to cause absolute havoc in your life, which will then also affect other people. So, what works for one season becomes a no no for another season. In winter, when depression gets severe, exercising and drinking coffee is great. It gives a mood lift, so long as you lay off the sugar and starches you feel like consuming on vast quantities to get back your previous high energy you miss having, which suddenly disappeared. But, come spring, when the mood begins to rise, I found it wise to stop exercising so much, stop the caffeine, dim the light, reduce exposure to noise, activity, busy atmospheres, movement, bright colours etc, despite the intense desire for such things as Mood heads towards a high phase. Sitting perfectly still and quiet, in a dimly lit space for 30 minutes is a very difficult thing for a bipolar person to dpp in the high phase, but, I found that by challenging myself to do this, I could stop the high from becoming unbearably high ie stressful, potentially dangerous. Meditation helps balance you and come back down to reality as you can then ponder whether it really is such a good idea to do some of the far fetched ideas one can get during a high, when ideas and creativity and energy are very fast and high and bright. Sure, you can get brilliant ideas, achieve much during this phase, but it can also be potentially dangerous to yourself, mainly. Also, you need to consider the effect your extreme e ergy etc has on other people, who will often get stressed out by it, unable to keep up. But the bipolar person can seldom understand what's wrong with all these people. If you have bipolar, you will often have no insight into why people behave or react as they do to you, just as they cannot understand the way you are, especially during a high energy high. My advice is to simply stop trying tp understand why you are as you are and they are as they are. I just simply accept it. If people seem so slow, when my world is moving fast, I just accept that they are too slow, instead of getting annoyed about this, like I used, before I got smart about controlling my bipolar. If they criticise me or cannot understand the way I am, I lose no sleep worrying about being labelled 'crazy'. "I simply detach emotionally from such types and be as crazy as I need to be to feel normal and OK for me, but I always watch that my behaviour does not harm either myself or other people. Being somewhat eccentric or creative etc or doing unusual harmless things is no crime and though it may be annoying to those who must always have perfect social Co for it, uniformity, monotony, dullness, routine, repetition, it harms nobody. The very things most people like and expect eg routine, order, monotony etc can often be a form of extreme mental torture to Bipolar types, especially firing the high phase, though in the down phase it is easier to cope with such ways of being, even welcoming them, though lack of energy and motivation to do things one aspires to fo or be eg neat and tidy, perfection etc can be a frustration. You want to do it eg clean up, achieve, but you simply csnnot find the energy to get started and it feels so infuriating. Nowadays, I cease worrying about such problems. I draw inspiration and hope from the knowledge that life experience and age give in dealing with Bipolar. I know that after every high must come the inevitable downer. And after even the worst depressed phase, if I hang on long enough and refrain from the temptation to end it all, a high will dawn again, though in the depths of depression it is hard to imagine how this could possibly ever change. Have faith. It will. And all the jobs I wanted to get done during a downer that I could not cope with then, suddenly become easily done in a flash during a high phase. And one wonders why on earth they seemed like such massive, impossible tasks, goals etc to achieve. If feeling suicidal during a bad down phase, one useful trick I devised was not to tell yourself not to do it. I simply ensure there is nothing easily accessible to attempt suicide with eg pills, sharp objects etc. And then use delaying tactics eg I say to myself 'Right, I have every reason to wish to end this pointless miserable depressed existence. But, not right now. Maybe in 3 months time.' This mental trick works because it respects your present rotten, sad etc feeling, instead of denying it. But, you are not giving into it or giving it instant, easy gratification eg swallowing fifty toxic pills in on e go to suicide. By promising yourself you will go ahead with your plan in say, 3 months time, you allow time for your down Mood to pass to the up phase of your bipolar cycle, as it always does, that is one thing you can bank on about bipolar, if nothing else. And, by then, you will have lost interest in your suicidal thoughts you had during the depths of the down phase. Too many more important, exciting things to do to waste time figuring out how to suicide. It will have to wait until upu get I. The mood again. Respecting your moods and working in with them, instead of rebelling against them, fighting them, like I used in my youth makes dealing with Bipolar not so hard, I found. Each phase has its good and bad aspects and you make the most of the good ones whilst minimising and controlling the bad or dangerous ones eh risk taking during the high phase. And, for young people close to utter despair, as I was when first diagnosed, as a young adult of about 19, it does get better as you get older and learn how to live with this affliction or even make the most of the gifts it confers and see the ability in the word disability that is used to describe bipolar. There are few afflictions that also confer gifts eg creativity, intelligence, energy, passion etc. Bipolar is such a rare one that does. But it is not on your terms. You have work in with the patterns and waves it creates which will give you great abilities and then they suddenly vanish, leaving you feeling so bad, wondering if it was real or not, even though you have concrete proof that you did something exceptional but now you cannot imagine hoe, because you have hit the down phase. But, it comes back again later. So, no need to panic. However, if you have a job or other people's deadlines and expectations to meet, it will be impossible with bipolar and they will get angry because they know you could do something before but now you won't and cannot understand why not and begin accusing you of all sorts of nasty things eg laziness, rebellious Ness etc. They simply cannot understand. They are normal human beings a nd you function differently from them.
    in the

  • Dangerous Dan
    Dangerous Dan Month ago +2

    Don't feel so special about your labels! We all have shit to deal with, we just don't all need to wear a badge

  • Plastic_Fruit
    Plastic_Fruit Month ago

    lithium is toxic. no one should take it in my opinion. they need to develop better drugs. you can research lithium orotate which is natural and non toxic.

    • Roy wilkins
      Roy wilkins Month ago +1

      Toxic or not, lithium has saved me.

  • Plastic_Fruit
    Plastic_Fruit Month ago

    If singing in public is seen as a shocking symptom of mental illness, then its the world that's really crazy here!!!

  • Daria B
    Daria B Month ago +1

    Those 10 years weren't kind to her. Mental illness is like a cancer. How awfully ironic and sad.

  • Daria B
    Daria B Month ago +16

    We don't want to die, just to live a life without pain....

    • roy_for_real
      roy_for_real 8 days ago

      +Daria B I'm not saying that. Some people just might want to die. Some people want to fish, some people want to read a book and some might want to die.

    • Daria B
      Daria B 8 days ago +1

      roy_for_real SO , if you had a life happy, without pain, you'd still want to die!? Why?

    • roy_for_real
      roy_for_real 8 days ago

      Well, some might want to.

  • plutorama
    plutorama Month ago +2

    49:58 If you can move your legs, there’s still hope of regaining your legs. It happened to me, so I can say this with certainty. I could move my legs in bed, but fell to the floor the moment I tried standing on them. Everyone around me gave up on me at hospital, but I insisted on Physio. They humored me, if only so I could have one hour of distraction away from my hospital bed. Seemed hopeless at first, that I had moments of thinking it was all an exercise in delusion. But it slowly started getting better. The physios STILL had no faith, I could tell in their faces. After two months, I had them walking behind me as I took my first steps up and down the hospital corridors. A month after that, I was discharged and walked out of there by myself. Was touch and go, but today I completely walk on my own. Do NOT give up! Ever.

  • Jacqueline Ford
    Jacqueline Ford Month ago

    Stephen’s doctor is awful. No creativity, no passion, just that pen writing more drug prescriptions.

  • cindy127
    cindy127 Month ago

    Thank you! For sharing sir.

  • cindy127
    cindy127 Month ago

    I live only for my Lord I trust him and know he loves me. God picks the time I go... Not me.

  • cindy127
    cindy127 Month ago

    Dr. Still hasn't got my balance right for me on meds. Bipolar 1. Plus I get triggers and don't know what to do when I'm there? So difficult and that's putting it lightly.

  • Amelia Flowers
    Amelia Flowers Month ago +3

    " Park bench material " she is Brutal 🤕

  • Karyl Baker
    Karyl Baker Month ago

    Fascinating! And a great reference to the difference between highs and lows

  • cee new
    cee new 2 months ago

    She is a remarkable person.

  • Life 4 Fire Forever
    Life 4 Fire Forever 2 months ago +1

    Cordilia is so Beautiful

  • Matt Shears
    Matt Shears 2 months ago

    I would love to be able to follow stephen and learn his ways. He is amazing.

  • Christine macMacLeod
    Christine macMacLeod 2 months ago

    I was surprised when Scott’s doctor put him on Lithium. From the description of his employer he sounds like a rapid cycler. I was told by several of my psychiatrists over the years that Lithium is not good for rapid cyclers. Has anyone who cycles rapidly had an experience with It?

    • Stephanie C
      Stephanie C 21 day ago

      Christine macMacLeod when I’m manic, I get agitated easily. So he could be in a single episode.

    • mr table lamp
      mr table lamp 2 months ago

      i herd Bradley Wiggins finds it beneficial.

  • McKenna Hyde
    McKenna Hyde 2 months ago +1

    Thank you so much for this video. As someone who has bipolar disorder, it’s always comforting to know that other people can relate to the struggles that come from the illness. It’s usually isolating, so it’s nice to watch people having honest conversations about what it truly means to have bipolar disorder.

  • Dan
    Dan 2 months ago +1

    It's clearly Stephen Fry's conscience pricking him.
    The 'panther' or 'heavy weight' is likely a demon. I suggest she sings some hymns and asks a Christian to pray for her

  • Dan Reid
    Dan Reid 2 months ago

    You can only cope by pursuing hobbies & friendships. Keep busy & distracted from negativity!
    Love yourself & nurture your Inner-child.

  • TheBrabon1
    TheBrabon1 2 months ago

    i have bipolar
    treatment is hit and miss
    someone with bipolar should never be placed on antidepressants...which are a mood elevator....i was...i was on a high for 2 a result, made a lot of bad choices, because i thought i could do anything....i also couldnt sleep and the shrink prescribed medication to help me sleep...that was another mistake
    most of the meds for bipolar have pretty bad side effects...including early death because it damages your kidneys
    is understanding of bipolar better? no
    my family thinks i should be symptom free because im on meds...but there is no cure and i can be triggered
    its a shitty illness

  • ØrPhÄn MüRpHy
    ØrPhÄn MüRpHy 3 months ago +1

    I hated this was great.

  • ray gorman
    ray gorman 3 months ago

    Great follow up documentary, just to be able to put a spotlight on the stigma around mental health is really good for not only the person with the illness but family and friends affected by it. Such a hard thing for people to understand who think they have had no exposure to it. It’s so easy to dismiss people’s suffering by labeling them with the horrible word that is “crazy”. All you can really do is imagine yourself in their shoes. As with Stephen Fry it has helped with his career but at what cost, medication and healthy lifestyle can be the only real answer, however we all have our bills to pay so finding a balance is a must. The pressures of life certainly don’t help but must be suffered sadly. There is always light at the end of the tunnel with good friends and family 😀

    • Jeannie Craig
      Jeannie Craig 2 months ago

      And sometimes that light at the end of the tunnel is yet another train coming right at you!

    TONGA9691 TONGA 3 months ago

    The original documentary made me cry ... and realise that I wasn't alone in my madness. Good on you Stephen, old bean.

  • G Power
    G Power 3 months ago +4

    I can't comprehend the stress that Cordellia deals with. The manic lows that she has had to battle through, only to get "rewarded" with breast and lung cancer? I am so gratefull for these wonderfully honest documentaries that Mr.Fry has presented to us. I have great respect for him, and am thankful for the years of entertainment he has also given to us. I hope he, (and all), find peace, and a patherr to share the good and bad that life throws at us. I have such a great fondness for him. Thank you - sending you peace from L.A.. , GJP.

  • C0untZ3Ro
    C0untZ3Ro 3 months ago +1

    I don't have Bi Polar, I have sometimes crippling depression brought on by PSTD. I'm lucky I have my three cats (Yes I'm a crazy cat person). If I didn't have them I wouldn't be alive today. My therapist didn't recommend drugs as she doesn't believe it requires them. But I sometimes think if I should go on them...

  • Angel Heart
    Angel Heart 3 months ago +1

    it's quite mean that someone uploaded that video of that lad people have no respect it should be illegal to share other people I swear

  • Eric Ward
    Eric Ward 3 months ago

    "...a submerged minority." Well said Stephen 👌🏻

  • Kenny Harris
    Kenny Harris 3 months ago

    Manic depression is brain damage I know it has symptoms ie migraine stomach problems epilepsy and out of the body experiences.

  • Kris Sumerfelt
    Kris Sumerfelt 3 months ago +1

    I've been anti medication for the sole reason of laws changing and it being suddenly taken way. coming off some of those will make you sick for a month!

  • Busy Bee x
    Busy Bee x 4 months ago

    Stephen has gone from cyclothymia to bipolar 1?... How? When he burns out he sleeps 8 hours and his mania of 'Joan of Arc' was only seen by a relative. Ok I believe you....

  • Dick Pooler
    Dick Pooler 4 months ago

    all ma love Stephen.

  • Luke Schwartz
    Luke Schwartz 4 months ago

    17:24 sick Smiths reference

  • Nicola Frost
    Nicola Frost 4 months ago +1

    Proof that genius can really,really stupid. Ten years on and Stephen still hasn't worked out rule one of living with bi-polar-regular sleep pattern. He pulls off that ridiculous stunt, flying all over the place, and wonders why he gets ill. A bit like jumping out of a window and wondering if it has anything to do with your broken leg. Booze is just out of the question too, that's rule number two. I've been living with bi-polar disorder for nearly 50 years and am convinced bi-polar is a sensitive persons reaction to an abnormal world. Being made to live by a clock, instead of by the seasons and your environment, for instance. I believe the cure lays in being in touch with one's body and the Earth, and you have to take that giant step of making healing your priority.

  • afringedweller
    afringedweller 4 months ago

    Good program. Helpful to me: a keto diet, (cutting out carbs, sugar in any form, alcohol too, of course) mild exercise not necessarily going to a gym, but moving throughout the day as opposed to sitting at a desk all day, and vitamin & mineral supplements D3, B complex calcium magnesium, potassium. I originally started on this program to help with diabetes, and discovered a great, evening out of moods. Though I'm not diagnosed bi-polar and am not saying anybody should quit their meds, I feel certain it couldn't hurt to try these things. Good luck all!

  • Kathleen Fraser
    Kathleen Fraser 4 months ago

    introvert - not a disability

  • glorianne papolis
    glorianne papolis 4 months ago +2

    it doesn't just happen, load of crap, it is due to trauma which causes a re wiring of the brain,

  • glorianne papolis
    glorianne papolis 4 months ago +3

    no one talks about the trauma behind these disorders, if the trauma is not addressed it will never be controlled, mental illness is ridiculous diagnosis, it is a coping mechanism and it needs to be addressed in order to progress, cope and eventually conquer, you need to live through' it in order to go beyond it' , please watch Dr. Gabor Mate,

    • Karmas A Butch
      Karmas A Butch 2 months ago

      glorianne papolis Agree. I work in community mental health and there’s always a trauma history of some sort to be found in clients with major disruptive mental health issues. Always.
      Even when the person themselves has not made the connection between the two, that’s also because our healthcare system does not know to look for it, or sometimes the trauma is too buried and painful for the person to allow to the surface level of awareness, to be able to realize it was Trauma and voice it.
      It happens way too consistently to be pure coincidence. But usually occurred in childhood and the brain was rewired while developing, then creating a lack of insight due to the coping mechanisms it put in place to adapt and survive at such a young age.

  • Vicki Lynn
    Vicki Lynn 4 months ago +1

    Is it possible that when he is "manic" he is actually having a spiritual experience that doesn't require medication? Psychiatrists have a very narrow minded view of psychology and want to medicate otherwise normal experiences

    • Katherine K
      Katherine K 2 months ago

      No. This is a brain condition that is literally causing him to be suicidal. Telling him it is some spiritual experience is like telling a cancer patent not to take meds because god made them that way.

  • Adam Winstanley
    Adam Winstanley 4 months ago +1

    its shocking what the internet can do

  • rhiannon rozier
    rhiannon rozier 4 months ago

    I saw my first psychiatrist aged 8 and my first suicide attempt at 14 saved by the school nurse, I have found a balance now and dont mind my highs or lows from that comes my creativity. I cannot work full time and was diagnosed with BP which runs in my family. My shame and sadness is it seems both my sons have it and I feel that though I love them intensely I should not have had children and passed this to them to deal with, though I do understand them more than they do themselves. I wish everyone would be tolerant of others as we all have a path to walk and some walk a more wriggly path than others with lots of pot holes and mountains in, each individual is amazing and unique and different. its just some of us are more different than others and we are amazing in our difference

  • Jess B
    Jess B 5 months ago

    I am bipolar. I've noticed that if I consistently don't take the full dose of my medication for a period of time, then I will feel a depression that is worse than those I ever experienced before taking the medication

  • Mary Casper
    Mary Casper 5 months ago

    Alot of this is about looking for attention, not repenting, and not trusting almighty God. Don:t trust doctors; God gives you the strength to overcome!

    • Tübermensch
      Tübermensch 28 days ago

      The only people I see looking for attention is religious know-it-alls that want others to notice & applaud their _Righteous Godliness._ Who is the real mentally ill?

  • Lara Pulaski
    Lara Pulaski 5 months ago

    This stops negative thoughts

  • Darío Saquetti
    Darío Saquetti 5 months ago

    I believe depression it's a soul illness. Maybe you are not doing what are you suppose to do or live a life that you're not supposed to live, i.e You are an accountant but you really wanted to be a painter. Or you had a childhood where you've been given everything and you don't have the motivation to pursue goals... My remedies to cope with my depression are exercise, running specifically and have goals to pursue. I know though that each case is different. But it is tough. To me the worse part is being considered abnormals or crazy. Being judged by my mood swings.

  • Rose Blue
    Rose Blue 5 months ago

    Thank All who shared their stories. I have Suffered All of my life and was only diagnosed proper in the last few years. It's a wonder I am still here. Thanks be to God that I believed in him and loved my mom and dad no matter. Since I have children and do believe in a higher power I have been able to hang on. I live daily appreciating the disappointment and short comings of man kind but in my soul I know that there is a God and He does love me and mine and so I go on. I get by with prayer ,positive thinking, much as I can and appreciating that I am so loved though I am messed up. Med's suck I know but it's time a wing and a prayer to get them hopefully right. Please hang in and hang on loved one's. Again Thank You All for sharing. For a change I don't feel so alone and misunderstood.

  • mr table lamp
    mr table lamp 5 months ago

    i think people thought Alecka the man on the train, was just being an exhibitionist, they did not think he was having a manic episode, anyway he,s got a good voice, and should n,t be embarrassed,and he certainly shouldn't listen to people making rediculously cruel remarks, which were juevenile and frankly brainless.

  • Jen Werner
    Jen Werner 5 months ago +1

    Lithium we dont know how it works but we're going to give it to you anyway! Classic statement - good for BigParma & the Junk Science industry!

  • Mr Watto
    Mr Watto 5 months ago

    I do like Stephen Fry, he's a good comedian, actor & all round good chap.

  • acajudi100
    acajudi100 5 months ago

    Please care about others, and you will feel better. Go to a country where people are suffering, and help. All of you are just self centered users.
    Search Judi Grace StoryCorps now.

  • Tordy Clark
    Tordy Clark 5 months ago +1

    Saying to oneself "I"ll never do A, B or C because of this", is simply negative. It is not helpful. If you get overwhelmed, it doesn't help to do this. The is no cure for life. Cordelia just seems negative. Negative self talk is a really EASY thing to do, it almost makes you feel better because it's powerful. But it doesn't help in the moment. She seems depressed and hidden anorexic, obsessed with weight.
    I am not saying it's easy or simple to get out of a depressive mindset. But it's totally fine to acknowledge your markers and deal with them.
    Her mother also is not helpful wen she talked that her daughter has "ruined" her life.
    If that is her mother, and she lived with her mother.....I'm not surprised the daughter feels like this is has been nurtured into a worse position. That mother looks and sounds like a wet blanket.
    If you are majorly sensitive, it's awful to be stuck with a mother like that. They are co-dependant I feel.

    • Blair Venge
      Blair Venge 3 months ago

      "Cordelia just seems negative ". Shes literally dying! ??? Were you born with a brain?

  • M Munroe
    M Munroe 5 months ago +2

    43:53 I would suggest everyone watching this follow up with anything featuring Dr.Gabor Maté who is a compassionate, eloquent, and extraordinarily intelligent human being who gives real clues as to what is actually going on with us and the source of our dis-ease.

  • No one really matters
    No one really matters 5 months ago +1

    Everyone on this earth has mental health . We all hurt, cry, laugh, and then repeat.. anyone who judges me for me emotions, can rot in hell

    • Mary Casper
      Mary Casper 5 months ago

      Great comment! No one really matters made me laugh! They always say "they say" Well I don"t care what They Say I believe in truth and love I don"t care what they do to the tune of push and shove they can laugh like a loon and the earth will break in two. They can travel the moon and the chosen will be few.God looks only on the heart and there"s heaven for a start. They can murder, rape, and mock, and there"s HELL eternal shock! Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me".

  • Jennifer
    Jennifer 5 months ago +4

    This is not a good example to show -given that she has cancer also, Of course that is going to make things more complicated.

  • al bundy
    al bundy 5 months ago

    Is this a first world problem? what would happen to someone in a tribe in the Amazon jungle, would it even happen?

    • Agnes M
      Agnes M 4 months ago

      Our modern society is sick. Theirs aren't. Even though noe you see native people from latin America begging on the streets since they were stripped out of their natural envirnment thus becoming increasely sick themselves. The sense of community, the sacred plants, their rituals...that is what makes natives sane..and when someone is not sane, there is no stigma surrounding it.

    • IlovemyCountry
      IlovemyCountry 5 months ago

      al bundy less chance as its genetic and the population is smaller. People in isolated primitive tribes get less problems as those genetically affected or weak or disabled tend to die out and dont reproduce.

  • Chuck Starry
    Chuck Starry 6 months ago +52

    It may not happen in my lifetime, but I would like to see people move away from using the term "mentally ill" or "mental illness". Conditions such as bi-polar, panic disorder, etc., are all physical illnesses that simply demonstrate symptoms from our most complex organ, the brain. Would you say that an individual that had a stroke and is paralyzed on one side of their body is mentally ill? Of course not, yet that person has damage to their brain, just like an individual with bi-polar has a physical, chemical imbalance. Parkinsonism is a fairly common disease of the brain, yet here again I have never heard a health care professional refer to a Parkinson patient as mentally ill. We have moved away from the term "mentally retarded" to describe a child with Down's Syndrome. Isn't it about time that we gave "mental illness" the boot as well? I think so...

    • treemonk
      treemonk 9 days ago

      @Chuck Starry You're absolutely correct! R.D.Lang, a psychiatrist back in the 1960s &70s, tried to remove the "mentally ill" stigma from virtually ALL mental states (schizophrenia, catatonia, paranoia, psychopathy, manic/depression, etc.). He proposed that people who presented abnormal mental states if allowed to work through/act out in a safe environment would either "get it out of their system" (sorry, I'm simplifying this) or show that there was a biochemical/ anatomical cause. Remember, back then "treatment" for nearly all "mental illness" was shock (very bad even if it seemed to help a few poor souls) and lobotomy (even worse).

    • treemonk
      treemonk 9 days ago

      +Suzanne Unger More and more groups supporting us bipolar folk are appearing. I hope you can find one that suits you. Regrettably, secrecy is still the best way to keep ones job in most cases. I've heard managers/bosses say having "crazies" or "nut jobs" around is to high risk when referring to people with bipolar or depression. Eventually they will learn that we are often more creative and productive than average even though we sometimes need more "sick days".

    • Glenda Landen
      Glenda Landen 24 days ago

      Thank You For your comment !

    • Suzanne Unger
      Suzanne Unger 3 months ago +4

      It was cheering to see bipolar people loved and accepted and understood by their families, friends and employers. For 10 years I have taken the medications and spoken with a counselor twice a week. But I must stay quiet with friends, family, and especially on my job if I am to get along. I hope someday I can be less isolated

    • Dunk N Dognuts
      Dunk N Dognuts 4 months ago +2

      I agree, and I think it only enhances the stigma to think like that. Many people won't seek help because it involves admitting to being sick and broken, which is tantamount to admitting defeat and to being powerless. Yes, these conditions can be debilitating, but I don't think people already suffering from them should be made to feel powerless or sick, different perhaps, but not weak or broken. Personally, thinking about being ill only deepens certain negative feelings I have, and anxiety worsens, so I've given up on the idea and it's helped me to cope at least a little better.

  • Carole Williams
    Carole Williams 6 months ago

    I always understood manic depression to be borderline personality disorder not bipolar.

  • Farahnaz X
    Farahnaz X 6 months ago +1

    After her I realized 75 percent of the women I started dating were bipolar untreated. Love and understanding won't fix it. You have to have endless patience or it'll drain you if you're in a relationship with someone with bipolar disorder.

  • Farahnaz X
    Farahnaz X 6 months ago +28

    I had a girlfriend with bipolar I thought it was just mood swings so I didn't think much about and I didn't understand her until after we broke up. Now we are good friends and I educated myself about her condition. I know having patience and staying positive towards her helps a lot. I absolutely never do or say negative things to her no matter what she do. I know I can't fix her but my positive energy soothes her when she's not being rational or logical. I somewhat became her personal friend therapist whenever she feels the world becomes too much for her.

    • Brian Griffin
      Brian Griffin 4 months ago +6

      She is lucky to have someone like you in her life. I admire you for that.

    WARRIOR FOR TRUTH 6 months ago

    lot of sht you need PHARMA TOXIC DRUGS. High dose NIACIN works amazing its all natural and worked for worst depression. Check out Andrew Saul vit guy, i can see that family are eating an unhealthy diet going by their wait get off the toxic foods start juicing organic veg and apples. stop eting toxic frozen muck, no canned toxic, no processed foods all naturally cooked diet is everything with depression too.

    WARRIOR FOR TRUTH 6 months ago

    Gerson therapy girl you can self taught with books. you cant heal it mainstream your immune system is broken your body was made to heal you got to self heal your body naturally to survive it you can i did it.
    you manifested tht cancer you keep teling your body you want to die it will manifest that because of your thoughts. greg braden, bruce lipton, dr emoto, dr wayne dyer.

  • E Watts
    E Watts 6 months ago +7

    I'm sorry but him being bipolar has been obvious since the first series he made. I always thought the cyclothymic diagnosis was a cop out. It was obvious he had stronger symptoms than that.

  • Jacqueline Nack
    Jacqueline Nack 6 months ago +1

    I've never felt normalized, LOL,WTF,IS THAT😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂LIKE I can't just let go and have fun, or when I have fun I don't want to stop, I do go very low,and terrible ANXIETY, so much fun 🙄

  • Frank Wright
    Frank Wright 6 months ago +1

    who the hell would actually listen to "dr jha"? what a joke...

  • Pretty Mommy
    Pretty Mommy 6 months ago +3

    There is no shame in having bi polar. The shameful part is refusing help. My ex refused help, we tried everything. Untreated bi polar ( especially the mania) is the worst thing my kids and I have ever been through. Please, please get treated...or you will literally lose everything

    • social PsYcHo
      social PsYcHo Month ago

      Might loose everything anyway.. 😶 No1 is prepared to deal with this shit by the time it's there in such a way that it is obviously apparent.. No1 sees it coming.. No1 expects it.. Then when "i" turn into "that" .. "that" wrecks havoc with the life "i" has build.. Destroying bonds.. Breaking hearts.. Just no holds barred chaos.. "that" eventually leaves.. And leaves "i" with all these repairs.. "i" is to tired to deal with all of this.. So "this" comes and sits its fat ass on "i".. "i" dont mind.. "we 3" need to have a talk anyway..
      Then suddenly you see your wife and daughter.. And you cant remember when last you spoke to them.. Or why they ignoring you? "that" is not welcome at my house.. "i" i forbode it.. But, that bastard doesn't listen. And that's the problem.. It takes a special type of person to deal with bipolar symptoms that is currently occupying a loved one. I realized today that yes.. Every gawd damn day i fight this beast.. Somedays I loose.. Some i win.. But my partner is just spectating.. By choice.. Cause she is scared of the way i will react. 😶 This shit.. It sux..

    • sbarnett37tiger Barnes
      sbarnett37tiger Barnes 6 months ago

      That's good advice. I've only recently begun to suspect that I might have the disorder after having already lost pretty much everything. I always thought I was just a bit of an erratic person and that it was just my flawed personality that kept ruining everything but I have so many symptoms of mental disorder it's becoming undeniable and reflecting on my cycles of past behaviour is very revealing.

  • Tala Che'daka
    Tala Che'daka 6 months ago

    I hate being British. If the guy singing on the train was in America, everyone would probably join n. Shitty England. I'm embarrassed to be English. WTF does it matter that someone was singing? Why was it such a big deal? The person who recorded it obviously felt they had something to prove. What a dick!

  • Zoe Frances C
    Zoe Frances C 6 months ago +14

    When he talks about feeling like Joan of Arc..I understand him..Sometimes I go a month feeling like I'm magick or like I have some higher purpose - it drives me to weird behaviour like spending hours in my garden barefoot, trying to listen to every little sound and shift. I genuinely feel the special purposefullness he talks about, until I get a week of the complete opposite..I haven't spoke about it because it just feels normal to me. It's only in my low periods that I think about getting help

    • Brian Griffin
      Brian Griffin 4 months ago +2

      You should consider getting help. I wasted many years of my life by not getting treatment. For me, it has left me with tremendous regret.If you can spare yourself, it is worth it.

  • Upenda Sana
    Upenda Sana 7 months ago +3

    ...and yes what a great boss that chef guy had,if only there where more like that.

  • Upenda Sana
    Upenda Sana 7 months ago +15

    Well done Alika for speaking out,although I found it quite depressing what some of the children had to say when they did not realise that their words hurt.It really seems that empathy has to be taught and that it is cool to be mean,sad world we live in when this is kind of the norm and being kind and empathic is almost the exception rather than the rule.We have to ask who really has the "mental illness"sometimes when singing on a train causes such a reaction.

  • 08CARIB
    08CARIB 7 months ago +13

    My reoccurring thought throughout this is the role of the caregivers for people living with mental illness. It is a tremendous burden to not only those with the condition but also everyone close to them. For instance the wife discussing her husband, she is basically a single mother working full time and simultaneously dealing with the day to day pressures of family life while her spouse cant/wont. That pressure and strain produces it's own illnesses (ex. hypertension, anxiety, high cortisol levels which lead to obesity, etc.). All the best to everyone featured in the documentary.

  • Louise Cameron
    Louise Cameron 7 months ago +1

    With getting cancer you wud think shed start appreciating life typical mummys girl pathetic and before people cum at me im actually bipolar to

    • IlovemyCountry
      IlovemyCountry 5 months ago +2

      I doubt you are bi polar you are just a massive bitch!

    • sbarnett37tiger Barnes
      sbarnett37tiger Barnes 6 months ago +7

      Umm, little bit harsh here I think. Being faced with your own mortality and perhaps being stricken with fear of possible imminent death, which obviously would be an awful horrendous experience, this is supposed to make someone feel great and appreciate life!!? And if they don't suddenly love life they're pathetic? I have to disagree. The only people I know who love life have had the most easiest, comfortable life imaginable. No stress at all, still living at home with mum and dad, cruisy jobs making tonnes of money which all goes straight into their bank account, spend their money only on the wonderful things like overseas travel and nice cars, no health problems, naturally comfortable around people with great relationships etc etc. These are the people who love life and appreciate life to the full. I don't know of a single exception. So, bipolar or not, don't be such a hard-arse!

  • david jones
    david jones 7 months ago +1

    I have started smocking weed to help me sleep. this is through desperation because they will not precribe sleeping tablets

    • david jones
      david jones 6 months ago

      I hope you are having good day. I am very careful with weed because I know what can happen. It is central government which have instructed G P not to precribe sleeping meds but it has gone to far. Bi polar people would benefit when they can not sleep for sometimes weeks.b+sbarnett37tiger Barnes

    • sbarnett37tiger Barnes
      sbarnett37tiger Barnes 6 months ago

      Yeah doctors these days are more worried about their reputation and career than the patient's well being and comfort. If someone O.D.s on pills prescribed by a particular doctor, they could be in the shit.

  • Ryan Sizemore
    Ryan Sizemore 7 months ago +2

    Touches of OCD are starting to show up in my bipolar as well. I still don't think medication is for the patient's benefit but the doctors'. Mania is a drug. If you expect the side effects, the will you possess can still maintain your psyche and actively fight the manifestation of your mind's psychosis. Keep working on it Stephen. Keep people who are emotionally stable in your life.

    • sbarnett37tiger Barnes
      sbarnett37tiger Barnes 6 months ago

      So you are able to keep your behaviour under control during manic episodes by simply maintaining awareness/mindfulness of the fact that you have the disorder? Do you ever find it hard to distinguish between 'normal' thoughts and behaviours and 'manic' thoughts/behaviours?

  • John Allen
    John Allen 7 months ago +4

    I've exhibited some of the symptoms of manic depression, especially when I was younger. A defiance deep down inside which said I am not going to let people push me around. Later, I found I was suffering depression and it took me about 10 years but I got off all the medication and I am fine now. I hope you can find a therapist that will change your meds to get you on the right one. And talk to people.

    • LeeWhy
      LeeWhy 7 months ago +1

      John Allen what makes me sad is some people can’t afford therapy, I’ve met a few and they sadly turn to cheap alcohol

  • David Heinzen
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  • vinnie vector
    vinnie vector 7 months ago +3

    My wife was diagnosed with schizophrenia in March this year, and also displayed signs of bipolar . We are married for seven years and have two children together . When pregnant with our second child we found a malignant growth on her cervix after a check up after the birth she had a small op to remove and was given all clear , however she refuses to go for repeat check ups I have endured some tough times with my wife ranging from jealous mood swings to depression paranoia to more recently delusions . It’s being pretty tough for me and the kids. After we had the diagnosis I was so relieved , and now could react differently than before. As I thought she was being unreasonable for all those years. We are split at the moment because she risk to the children so is staying with friends but refuses treatment. I am British she Bulgarian we live in Germany this complicates things further.

  • arran kirkorian
    arran kirkorian 7 months ago +12

    I love this documentary and love everything steven fry does ,and prey to god that cordelia breast cancer will ok she has sufford enoegh with the bipolar illness god bless her and her mother

  • Andrew Grimes
    Andrew Grimes 7 months ago +3

    Yes Rachel, I think you are an inspiration to others. You are fine just as you are. Thank you for being so brave to tell your story to the world and in doing such good work. You are a living in a younger society which will find your journey resonates with them and will inspire them not to give in to despair and feelings of worthlessness. Just as you are is fine and you are very special in exposing and reducing the ignorance of the stigma about mental illness here on USclip too. Thank you again. Have a great day! (: (and if when you read this you are not having a great day consider buying a labrador! (: Warmest best wishes to you from Tokyo. Your story is reaching and teaching the world a new way to learn from good people like you who despite the bad times you are brave and strong to endure them and explain what that we are all more than our mental illnesses. We can overcome and go on and love life with a passion.

  • H!DDEN!NTHERA!N/雨の中に隠され

    shout out to the guy commenting human what a mass of parasites. hes right

  • gorilla twist
    gorilla twist 8 months ago +1

    MSM works for me. I am concerned that bi polar or autism people cannot be in relationships with Narcissists. Maybe the Narcissistic NEED MEDS.